Jams. So Thursday night I go out, up to the Art Gallery in Santa
Monica because the owner invited me up again to his very odd free form music
things, which can be very challenging and interesting, where the musicians are
freely creating music to go with the paintings he has on exhibit. Some of the
folks are very gifted and its fun to interact on an entire free form level and
It's turned out some interesting things. No one showed but me. So we visited
and I decided I would go to the bluegrass jam at the Mar Vista Market since I
was out and ready to do something anyway. I haven't been to any kind of jam for
a while now. I was going to the one at the Mar Vista Market, but it had gotten
weird and negative and I just quit. I don't sing at jams. I perform 50 -60 times
a year, singing and playing with my banjo, with whatever skill set I have. I
wanted to practice my banjo skill set and develop my ear. I have a lot of
respect for people I understand are better players than I am. So, there's a
banjo player that's in his seventies that knows it all. Got a great gift, knows
every lick Earl ever played. Anyway, he says where you been? I mutter something
about the band I play with has been doing gigs and I did a lot of County Fairs
this summer. And he moves away. I did free videos for some of these folks, got
nothing in return. Passed on some gigs to others, got zilch. Brought in a flyer
for a gig we were doing at The Mint, and was questioned and got a beer set on
top of them. And had nobody show. I've brought Cds in to give away. and was
treated like I was black plague.
I know what I am. I am the guy that his teacher just diagramed today why my downbeat note on my banjo roll doesn't start where its supposed to start. I'm the guy that goes to a teacher because I am still having problems hearing what I am playing and composing. I chart everything because I still have have problems with my recording genius guy in expressing what I'm trying to compose. I'm the guy that the banjo player next to me moves away from, because I'm doing something weird and annoying. I still get a whole lot of invites to go hear someone I used to play with, perform somewhere. Like really? It's been years now since anyone I know has shown up to one of my gigs. But I guess it don't really matter. I've known all along that your friends won't build anything for you. They are mostly just trying to stay afloat like you are. Right now I'm playing at a Swap Meet in Whittier, which is great therapy. People come and throw money in my tip jar, people tell me they like me. One guy came over and said I sounded like somebody's radio playing. Who really needs friends or ex-friends (the long list of people who used to sit next to me and play) Trust the money in the jar, is what I think. You guys out there that have been throwing money at me, are really my best friends. I come home with fifty or hundred, well that means a hell of lot more than some manager of an event that doesn't think you sound like John Denver.
I know what I am. I am the guy that his teacher just diagramed today why my downbeat note on my banjo roll doesn't start where its supposed to start. I'm the guy that goes to a teacher because I am still having problems hearing what I am playing and composing. I chart everything because I still have have problems with my recording genius guy in expressing what I'm trying to compose. I'm the guy that the banjo player next to me moves away from, because I'm doing something weird and annoying. I still get a whole lot of invites to go hear someone I used to play with, perform somewhere. Like really? It's been years now since anyone I know has shown up to one of my gigs. But I guess it don't really matter. I've known all along that your friends won't build anything for you. They are mostly just trying to stay afloat like you are. Right now I'm playing at a Swap Meet in Whittier, which is great therapy. People come and throw money in my tip jar, people tell me they like me. One guy came over and said I sounded like somebody's radio playing. Who really needs friends or ex-friends (the long list of people who used to sit next to me and play) Trust the money in the jar, is what I think. You guys out there that have been throwing money at me, are really my best friends. I come home with fifty or hundred, well that means a hell of lot more than some manager of an event that doesn't think you sound like John Denver.
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